2002-10-30 - 12:20 p.m.

Musik: Tori Amos-Scarlet's Walk

"you caught me lingering in another girl's paradise"

I'm bored. today's been a day full of waiting.

I'm waiting until I can go pick up my halloween costume (and kara's too)... I have the dress, the poofy tulle underskirt and I bought a really cute undergarment for it~ and I haven't decided if I'm wearing black or red fishnets. I bought a new necklace and I have a feathery headpeice to replace the lack of long flowing locks... I still don't know which shoes to wear. I wish I had $300 to spend on a new pair! *ha oh and I got my feather boa back from Nan (thanks btw) I'm just worried no one will get it. or that I'll look foolish. esp. compared to Kara's costume. its amazingly attention-getting.

I'm back to feeling dazzle*less. I just feel foolish and a mess. like the ugly duckling. all my flaws are glaring today. I have this horrible picture in my head-I'll go to try on my costume and it won't fit. the two weeks inbetween trying on/reserving my costume and picking it up...I feel like I've ballooned. *sigh*

...I need a life. or just some fucking drugs.

*sigh* dad just called. "your car payment is due next week....have you gotten any more hours at work, since you're not in school anymore?" yes. I'm a loser, its official.