2002-10-03 - 9:31 a.m.

musiK: just the stuff in my head.

I'm feeling too ill to get up to put on a cd. my insides are trying to kill me. I swear. feeling like you have knives in your belly is not fun. ah well. I'll be sure to take some medicine with me to work. *yawn* besides I wouldn't be able to make up my mind about what I want to listen to and half my cds are out in the car. and I hope to be sleeping soon. I really just want to dream. I haven't been doing much of that lately.

But last night was fun. I got to hang out with Jenny! she came over and we went to our fabulous mexican resturant. where I ate too much, and laughed lots. jenny's job is messed up but funny. ohh the story's that girl has! then we ran over to target and then went to ihop for drinks. I've really missed her. so then I got home and got ready to go to fiction~ I felt ok. after my more than typical day at school, feeling like such an ugly loser. I am sick of those skinny, amazon blondes. *sigh* but I felt pretty good on my way to fiction. I had my fuzzy spiderweb jacket on~ which always makes me feel good. as the night wore on, I felt increasingly worn down in pain and just eh. hmm listening to kara babble about her night. and now I'm feeling even sicker. *rolling eyes*

yeah today's seeming to suck. I'm going to try and sleep. although with the two of them in the kitchen who knows if I'll get to sleep. god. I'm so fucking sick and tired.