2002-08-30 - 8:13 a.m.

musiK: The Cure-WISH*

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Here is your horoscope for Friday, August 30

If you hate suspense, you're in for a rough ride. The Gemini Moon is hiding what would normally seem so obvious. It may be necessary to set aside your mission until sometime next week.

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*laughing* yes I know.

well. yesterday was long and frustrating. I tried updating like 5 times. most of the time I deleted it. or it just got lost in the spider webs.

well my date went well. I had a fun time... I was a little nervous, esp. getting ready. and even the whole meeting mom thing was a joke. and I don't know if that was me rushing us out or if she's just taking her time. but whatever. The date was a total date. opening car doors and everything. very unusal for me. and he pays attention--> he bought me my favorite white chocolate/raspberry filled godiva star*fishes! for my birthday since he'll be out of town. he even paid for everything, which for a "dutch" girl is oddly nice. I am not used to any of this. I *should* be. but I'm not.

and then, upon getting home we talked about things. like are we? should we? can we? ... it was getting very over-analized. but then. it makes sense. he's scared of getting hurt. in addition to the "I'm moving after college" he kept throwing more things at me like "you wouldn't be happy with a guy like me--> (which screamed echos of justin in my ears) and that he is "very picky"~ finally I called him on it. I told him what was in my head and heart (well enough as I was ready to) and we came to the decision of going out on a 2nd date when he got back into town. which made me happy. I am starting to really like him. we seem to compliment each other. but what do I know? I have been wrong before. damn. I wish I had brought some Depeche Mode with me...