2002-07-15 - 11:27 a.m.

musiK: dancing around to--> Faith and the Muse~ Vera Causa (live/remixed cds)

I wish I could listen to this at work. *ha ha* right.

well yesterday was fun~ kara and I ran some errands. we went to the new art store. and went to the used book store. I bought a devo cd and a edvard munch book! swung by java, where I was supposed to meet jameson, mike(didn't show) and janell and tell them I'd be back, had to drop kara off. I returned with my purple painting. she got some time outside, in the public eye~ everyone seemed to like it. although I'm still a little skeptical on the whole "anyone could do it" thing I showed the painting to Noritha later and she said that not anyone could do it because I matched the colors so well. *smile* so... I'm thrilled with it. in addition to the yellow one I'm still working on~ I have the works of another painting in my mind. lots of reds... grr I don't think I have any red. *and I'm SO broke--> its not funny. and I spent $30 dollars yesterday that I shouldn't have! *sigh*

I hate money. and friday is so far away.

I had some thoughts this weekend. about myself and him and I can't remember exactly what I discovered. it was one of those moments where everything came into vision. and I thought yes thats what I need to do. I need to move on. he's gone either physically or emotionaly (most likely both). either way he's a jerk. a jerk for leaving without saying goodbye and/or a jerk for still being here and ignoring me.

(I have this intense idea to serach the obituaties...thinking well if he's dead he has a pretty good excuse....)

*sigh* but I'm not going to. cuz I know like noritha said: he wanted to make sure you never forget him. this way you'll always wonder... and then we laughed because thats where patrick is and we're sure they'll meet somehow and become friends. ok I want to work on some art stuff before I have to get ready for work.