2002-05-28 - 7:30 p.m.

musik: the cure- wild mood swings

AH! why does life do this? as soon as part of my life seems to be going or at least moving so well... another part decides to rebel. my disorder is getting worse. I was so scared just to brush my teeth. for fear of throwing up. and I finally ate something today-dinner. and now I feel horrible. *sigh* I am a smart person. I know this is wrong and dangerous and not healthly. I wish Noritha was around. or I could talk to Erika or Mollie. they'd know what to say. Jenny is just going to hit me *laugh* well I'm on my way out with jenny who should be here any second. so... I will leave with this final thought. What is it about my life that I feel that *this* is my only thing to control?